im tired.

im stressed.

im depressed.

anyone help me?

hate the feeling of being hungry!

i really realised my temper is real bad when im hungry.

sounds funny?

>.<

all my weekends are being burned!

except this coming weekends only.

kind of sad lahh..

:(

at least boss is alittle kind to me.

let me go off the day aft DnD.

just felt alittle glad.

(:

not working for PPA day.

normal ppl shld feel happy.

but im kind of sad.

y?

sometimes i feel im still like a small little sensitive girl.

grow up suet!

u're 22 alr!

not 12!

dont be over-sensitive over everything.

i really find she is much more mature den me.

ya she's older den me.

but...

argh~!!!

wana get my apr planner done by tonight.

wana get my cafe stuffs done by tonight.

i'll be gone tmr night.

i dont wana be late to submit my planner.

i dont want my beanies to say me only noe to talk during meeting want to implement this n tat but no actions done.

hais..

jia you suet!!

so tired.

again next mth will be a busy mth.

hiring n hiring n more hiring.

hais.

so sorry to nia tat i cant get off on 24th.

coz im gg for hiring.

plan another date k!

=x

next mth SIO.

the zone trainer was on MC for this mth's SIO.

next mth PPA.

so im gg to do cafe meeting tmr.

preparing all those details is really freaking me out.

still rmb the first time i conduct meeting at marina.

so funny.

im really busy these few days just to wana finish up those work b4 im on leave

i wana on leave peacefully.

n when come back from leave wont get scoldings.

haas.

im leaving sg on 1apr night to KL.

nv went back for cny.

thanks boss for letting me go back this time round.

well anw i deserved it ba!

=D

coming back on 4th night.

5th start work.

7th dnd.

followed by SIO den PPA den hiring.

busy!

-.-

wish me luck next mth.

hope i'll have free time to go out!

time for loads of photos!

enjoy!

(:

hehe-haha-hoho cny dinner '10

iris n me cam-whore on our way home while waiting for train.

nia n me at sentosa.

yun's bdae present!

CK bra set~

yun's bdae celebration at azabu sabo marina square.

sisters cam-whore!

this is funny!

=D

dessert time!

cake time!

shan special present from SK for yun.

our deep deep sisters love!

(:

angela, nina n me at k suites orchard parade hotel ytd.

the interior n atmosphere was damn great.

the best karaoke i ever been.

but the exterior i prefer k suites iluma.

we'll definitely go back again.

luckily we got friends at both k suites.

so no room charge for us.

if not.

the room charge is damn ex de lor!

=D

went to jobsdb.com career fair.

im not job seeker.

but the exhibitor.

from 10am to 7pm im there.

all i can say is..

serve those singaporeans right for being jobless!

so picky n choosy!

so what to show off telling u're fresh grad.

u're degree holder.

if u're really tat great.

u need not to go for these kind of career fairs to look for jobs.

u can just jolly well sit at home to send loads n loads of resumes.

companies will look for u instead!

see!

foreigners are coming here to look for jobs.

now everywhere be it small or big companies employed lots of foreigners.

dont u feel ashame of?

i do!

well all i can say is..

wish those ppl best of luck n all the best being jobless.

happy picky-ing n choosy-ing!

=D

met jies at marina for yun's bdae!

full attendance!

exclude shin!

i really HATE ppl who MIA!!!

whatever reasons u gave will be excuses to me.

save ur effort n no point letting me noe wat u wana say.

u can continue MIA-ing!

>.<

stop talking abt her..

i had a wonderful great n lovely night.

details n photos hopefully will be by tmr night.

coz im kind of tired now le!

=x

tmr working at 830am.

at least mon im not working so can stay up late to do it.

provided i'll not be tired tmr.

lols!

y u all keep on saying older guys are better?

i dont noe n i dont wish to noe either!

i keep on telling myself wat i heard might not applies to all ppl.

recently i always feel like asking him "wat if one day i were to leave u?"

i dont noe.

sometimes i just felt tired.

i so wish to be pampered n be treated sweetly n can throw tantrums like small girls.

but i dont feel pampered by him.

i dont find sweetness by him.

n he hates me acting like a small girl.

i kept on telling myself he'll sure pamper me treat me sweetly n stand my small girl tantrums one day.

i think im too patient le.

waited till tired le.

:(

ytd's management meeting was great!

forget abt those boring meeting details.

aft meeting we went dinner at prima taste.

the food there was great plus wonderful!

really!

i ate real lots.

3 small portions of chicken rice, laksa n satay beehoon.

softshell crab.

popiah.

W0w~!!

a must try place!

the bill was $150++ for 8pax.

we got 10% discount though.

thanks boss!!

<3

aft dinner went over to OC to meet nina.

den we den to bedok to meet junaina.

shit her!

she want us 2 working person to go over to meet a non-working person.

not paiseh!

-.-

we chat chat chat.

till jun's bf finish work.

we went for supper.

the 4 of us talk n talk n talk.

n i realised.

the circle of mcd is damn small.

see..

my ex-mgr's bf noes my ex-1st asst.

complicated?

my ex-mgr = junaina

junaina's bf = vana

vana = bedok north 1st asst

my ex-1st asst = haffis

conclusion is..

vana noes haffis!!!

i was so damn freaking shocked!

vana was talking abt UAP class.

so i asked him he in the 1st or 2nd batch.

he told me 2nd.

i was like "haffis!"

he told me the 2 of them just sit side by side in class.

lols.

its a small world.

vana told me he's a nice guy.

i emphasized.

"he's just nice to work with"

didnt talked more abt haffis to vana.

just tat dont wana throw his face lah.

we shall see d&d wat will happen.

cheerS!!

=DD

n actually my ex-RM audrey is their classmate too..

see small world.

or small mcd?

well we talked alot ytd night.

from 12am till 3am?

we keep on recalling our those best days.

places we went its countless.

its damn fun.

miss..

really miss...

one thing i did not cherish are my ex-RMs.

audrey n josias.

if whoever were to ask them now abt me last time.

im sure they will say im a naughty girl ba.

im really bad those days.

talked back to them.

raised voice at them.

kind of nv respect them ba.

tsk tsk tsk.

those were the days...

i hate the feeling of painfulness.

i hate being misunderstood.

i hate impatient ppl.

i hate ppl not listening to me.

i hate being not important.

i hate being angry.

i hate myself crying.

i hate myself hating so much things!!!

>.<

I WANA BE A HAPPY PERSON!!!

robert just came back from thailand.

i asked him now thailand so messy he still dare to go ar..

he told me ok lah.

the most stupidest thing he told me is he heard some "bom bom" sound.

he tot is "fireworks"!!

he still can raise his head look into the sky searching "where's the fireworks?"

-.-

aft tat den he realised tat is the ppl there putting bombs.

stupid right isnt it?

lols.

hope everything will be fine 2mths later.

wont affect our very first sisters trip to overseas.

(:

the most freaking things happened today is..

faliq called store to look for fakri.

i said "he's not working"

while i already recognised tat faliq's voice.

den he asked "suetlin ar?"

i replied in a very serious tone "no..mgr here.."

he was like "ohh ok..."

he was like wanting to say bye n hang up alr..

den i shouted "ooi its me lahh!!"

and den i scolded him like nobody's business!!!

aft scolded him.

i still told him i havent forgive him yet!

>.<

well..

like wat nina said..

im soft hearted.

if im really tat hard hearted.

i would just let him hang up the phone

management meeting later 3pm.

dont noe wat time am i suppose to reach store.

later wake up den i ask cath n louise ba.

mon went kallang with nina aft work.

missing those aunties.

glad they still rmb me.

its 2.5yrs ever since i left.

(:

we do miss those times.

hais.

reached home abt 1am.

dont noe y suddenly headache.

so went to slp.

tue not working.

6am woke up coz stomach cramp.

pain till i wake up!
felt so shit!

luckily im not working.

ended up i woke up at 5pm.

haas.

working later at 5pm.

wana get some more slp.

hees!

=p

today work was kind of GREAT!

started work at 0830.

i feel time real fast today.

so fast its alr 1730!

time to go back!

haas.

nina finished work abt same time with me.

she came over n waited for me.

and we went for dinner tgt.

i told her wat happened to me ytd.

i told her im damn angry!

she really understand me tat well.

she told me tat im the type of soft hearted.

i'll sure forgive them de.

yup i noe i will.

but i dont noe when.

and i dont noe how.

i'll see how n when ba.

we went to boon keng for dinner.

our fav hangout place.

we talked alot.

yes!

i found someone who had the same thinking as me.

i can prove him wrong le!

haas!

money is not everything.

which is more impt?

which path will u choose from below:

1. u're rich but u're unhappy?

2. u're poor but u're happy?

if i have more i'll spend more.

if i have less just spend less.

nina thinks this way too.

it reminds me of the 2 of us can had 1 hangout session spent up to 100bucks.

n while she's jobless.

she can spend 200bucks in 3mths.

yes tats wat i mean.

perhaps we came from a not so good financial family.

we have to start work as young as 14 to have extra pocket money.

thus it makes us have similar mind.

we do agree tat guys are damn ego!

YES THEY ARE!!

dont take things too hard.

if not life will be hard.

im so agree with wat i said.

coz i used to taking things hard.

ended up my life sux.

dont set high expectation.

the higher expectation the higher disappointment.

from mistakes i learned not to take things too hard.

not to have high expectations.

n now im happier den before.

its true!

i talked to much to him.

90% he dont agree.

but she agree with me 90%.

nina is really so me lor.

(:

aft today.

i found 1 more abt myself.

im a good listener.

not a good talker.

ur sms made me fed up abit.

"i TOT you THINK who CONFIRM?"

freak~!!

-.-

tmr working opening at 0630.

nights all~

loves!

<3

im fcuking ANGRY!!!

this is the **th times tat HAFFIS no show on a date n u put me aeroplane!!!

and one more!!

FALIQ noes tat i hate HAFFIS no show on dates.

n yet he did the same thing!!

YES so NOW!

i wana do the same thing.

not answering any phone calls from the 2 of u.

not replying any msgs from the 2 of u.

tats wat ppl always say..

can offend anyone in the world.

but dont offend ladies.

the 2 of u are doomed this time round.

ended up left with only nia n me went to sentosa.

:(

anw till now 1 whole day.

no call no msg from the 2 of them apologising.

this made me more ANGRY.

well if they can live on without guilt abt this matter.

frankly speaking.

i salute the both of them!

>.<

in the noon went shopping with mum n friends.

saw few pairs of shoes n heels tat i liked.

but all no my size!

hate my leg being so small.

-.-

tmr will be a brand new day!

dont think abt wat had happened today.

and work hard tmr!

cheers!

=DD

wahh!!

he finally re-appeared aft MIA-ing!

i asked him "wahh u still alive ar?"

tats i always said to him too.

haas!

he did call me a couple of times but i really got no time to talk to him.

i told him i'll call him back.

when im free to call him back.

he's not free.

he told me he'll call me back.

so till now.

still no outcome wat will happen on this sat.

hais!

everything goes on smoothly today.

boss is kind of happy.

(:

where will i be on 1may?

how will my schedule be like next mth?

i dont wana have another heart attack

but boss is trying her best to keep me.

just wait n see ba!

argh!!

i really hate him MIA-ing!!

is like the WHOLE WORLD is looking for him!!

freak!!

made me cant shop online.

-.-

sometimes i really feel like dont wana forgive him.

but kind of difficult to do it leh.

anw im used to it alr.

i always tell myself just dont take it too hard can le lah.

he had really changed ever since the day he left.

i really dont noe wat will happen to this sat's plan.

dont feel like thinking.

coz im damn tired.

brain dead.

n oso i ever said.

no more planning no more organizing for me.

esp gathering.

ever since my previous experience.

no heart to do this kind of stuff anymore.

-acting to be very sad-

SIO class cancelled.

:(

but actually right..

we're damn happy abt it!

lols.

the zone trainer on mc today.

im damn shocked when she called n told me tat.

felt sorry to those who're alr otw to store n have to u-turn back home.

more sad to those who're alr in store.

one lucky one who is still at home.

im considered lucky too.

coz im working opening.

no harm for me.

glad tat not a long day for me!

(:

tix for universal studios on 20th are gone!!

well...

thanks so much to the so-call-organizer...

-.-

he did re-appeared just now in the noon.

but now disappeared again.

fed-dup!!

>.<

is it bad being 'daughter of the family'?

i felt so unfair!

sound so old times right?

but i somehow felt tat way.

imagine.

my father woke my brother up on one morning asking him wat he wants for breakfast?

im sleeping too.

nv even asked me.

not even buy a piece of bread for me.

cant be bothered to talk to anyone.

bathed n i went out.

>.<

how would u feel?

next imagine..

aft 1 whole day of work of coz hoping to have mum's home-cooked dinner.

guess wat?

otw home she called me saying brother not gg home for dinner so she's not cooking.

asked me to go n pack food home for dinner.

i was like...

WTH lor!

he's not gg home for dinner.

but i am!

den who am i?!!

i was so damn angry.

indirectly wana let her to tat im angry.

i did not go pack food home.

i went home n cook MAGGIE for dinner!!!

argh~!!!

how would u feel?

>.<

dear..

tmr when i meet u can u tell me ur good news?

let me have 1 less thing to worry n stress abt k?

loves!

<3

my precious sunday off.

(:

went IT show with dear.

damn lot of ppl.

i got wat i wanted.

n left.

coz he HATES places with lots of ppl.

he kind of giving me faces alr.

next time no more gg IT show with him.

-.-

next den we headed towards carrefour.

yup yup!

we wana take up new hobby!

so went there check out the stuffs.

lols.

=DD

WAHH!!

haffis called me back aft 2days!

2days ago i called n msg him coz i really got urgent + impt thing to ask him.

imagine i even called fadz, faliq n cath for help.

see how desperate am i~!!

i think if i really need his help to rescue me.

think im died le lah.

-.-

anw..

i oso nv ans his call.

coz i realised his miss call abt 2hrs later.

haas!

=D

tmr opening.

will be a damn long day for me.

with the stupid SIO.

might end at 8 or 9pm.

so sick lor!

>.<

he ORD lohh!!

finally get to see his pink IC aft 2yrs.

lols.

really been thru alot this 2yrs.

from before he go ns.

picking me up from work almost everyday.

ppl at work says im fortunate.

(:

den he went ns.

from meeting daily to meeting once a week?

sometimes once every 2weeks.

initially really damn not used to it.

but have to overcome it.

n oso hearing stories n stories alot couples will break up when the guy is in ns.

im scared upon hearing tat.

i dont believe stories.

instead i believe the both of us.

den 2yrs aft.

we're so lovely tgt.

<3

now my biggest worry is him.

hope he'll get a job soon.

hope i'll hear good new from him on tue.

(:

ytd opening.

kind of damn rush.

coz need to be at clementi at 5pm to collect my lens.

hees!

got it!

=p

fast n efficient!

pretty n nice lens too!

http://vainnybloqshop.onsugar.com/

he's now out at dbl o with his camp friends enjoying their ORD-ing.

im shocked tat he told me he's gg there.

coz his the type of person hates crowd.

n dbl o is DAMN LOT of ppl de lor.

guess wat!

he actually asked me wana join him or not.

surprisingly!

i rejected.

he's surprised too!

he noes i like to go there.

perhaps last time ba.

i rejected coz..dont feel like gg le ba.

n i want him to enjoy with his friends.

with me along?

kind of troublesome for him?

i think.

hmm to think back..

i told him im kind of abit regretted reject his offer.

abit missing my those dbl-o-ing days.

haas.

nvm its ok lah.

he told me of got the chance we'll go tgt.

(:

anw..

i'll enjoy myself zirca-ing on 7apr first!

n cfm!

fadz n haffis gg on 7apr too!

yes ahh!

=DD

think if without the 2 of them.

i wont wana go ba.

imagine gg zirca with my management team?

sleeping at home will be a better choice.

=x

universal studios on 20mar?

on?

or off?

organizer MIA again~

freak..

-.-

damn emo aft noeing nia got into early childhood diploma.

thinking back..

tat was my dream course 6yrs ago.

i still all the way went to NP to apply for tat course.

failed.

i dont get into any of my dream course.

so i ended up at NYP ECC course.

den again thinking back.

3yrs ago.

i cant get into any course i like in any of the uni in sg.

so i gave up studying.

chose to work.

coz i dont want history to happen again.

studying a course tat i dont like.

90% of ppl asked me y i dont wana continue study.

my ans is always my results are bad n cant enter uni.

till now..

ppl are still asking me really dont wana go back study le mah?

my ans is always see how first lahh.

hmm..

perhaps this is one of my regrets n failures in life.

nv ever get into my dream course to fulfill my dream.

hais..

:(

no online shopping this mth!

coz no extra cash this mth!

had spent on something else le.

always seeing those blogshop with nice tops n dresses.

i'll tell myself either it's not nice or it doesn't fit me.

well actually im just cheating myself!

lols!

next mth ba k!

=DD

louise asked me to be mentally prepared.

i might be the one transferring to skate park.

im not sad to be transfer out.

coz centrepoint got nth memorable for me.

unlike marina.

but i dont want to go skate park got another reason.

but if bosses want to to go.

i wont say no.

i'll follow want company says.

just like wat he said.

(:

i suddenly realised..

we're 30mths old!

<3

i dont noe y im damn emo abt wat im doing now if everything in 30mths ago does not happen?

1st

wat if 30mths ago i did not had tat conversation with irene tay in the cab otw to kallang?

i'll not have the chance to be promoted to 2nd asst.

i'll not be wat i am now.

tat chid care centre had agreed to hire me 30mths ago.

due to my luck.

i met irene tay.

i chose to get promoted.

n i did not turn up during the 1st day of work at the child care centre.

but..

wat if 30mths ago i did not met irene tay?

will i still be working at the child care centre?

or wat will i be now?

2nd

wat if 30mths ago i did not met him?

wat will i be now?

n wat will he be now?

i asked him..

he told me he dont noe.

he asked me back.

i told him frankly.

i told him i might be still as playful as 30mths ago.

im not a bad girl.

just wana enjoy life.

tats my mindset at tat point of time.

but anw tats just all my random tots.

im satisfied wat i am now.

(:

today not working.

acc him to 2 interviews just now.

1 failed.

coz not the position he wanted.

the 2nd one waiting for call.

he's so stressed up looking for 1.

im so stressed for him too.

hais.

its easy to get a job.

just tat its not easy to get ur dream job.

went ecp.

had a very long heart-to-heart talk session.

<3

i believe most ppl do have regrets during parts of their life.

instead of regretting the past.

y not look forward n think abt brighter future?

(:

i had a great day.

aft so long.

im real happy this time round.

but everything doesnt come easy.

reached work ard 1115.

found out freezer light bulb is fused since thursday.

friday got no one to change?

or the DIY shop close on friday?

y must inform me?

who was off for 2days n back to work on sat noon to change the bulb?

fri 1 whole day my poor crews gg in n out freezer in darkness?

tsk tsk tsk.

kind of WTF lahh.

fed up!

>.<

next saw my poor robert face so stressed up.

asked him wat happen?

he said he's died.

asked me to look at the schedule n plan the shift first.

wahh SHIT lor not SHIFT.

3crews nv turn up.

4crews on leave.

1crew attach to forum.

called up crews to coming in earlier.

n called forum to get back my crew.

we ourself oso dying liao.

still wana help others?

next life ba!

asked louise permission.

den called forum.

SHIT!

their phone engaged!

no choice.

to call haffis.

as usual.

he nv ans!

FREAK!

i really freaking out man.

i tried calling forum again.

phew~

got thru'.

talked to regina.

nagged by her.

she said she dying too.

i told her im DIED!

i dont care.

watever it is.

i want back my crew.

got back my crew.

got crews to come in earlier.

phew~

there goes my shift.

kind of smooth for tat 2hrs.

(:

aft tat...

lana n sharon came.

SHIT lahh.

office ppl just like to do travel doing busy weekends.

suddenly started to get busy.

not enough coverage.

with tat 2 ard talking abt this n tat.

once again im freak out.

there goes my temper!

>.<

i did not go n entertain them.

they finally go off aft 1-2hrs of feedback session.

to me.

they are just nothing better to do.

aft tat.

went to eat at newly opened kopitiam @ B2.

came back from break.

once again freak out.

seeing my queue almost till cold storage!!

wat is he doing?!

tot alr said need to focus on assets oso?!

its really a busy n a not easy day.

-.-

at 6pm

argh..

another 2hrs to stressed.

but not as busy.

so still ok.

den haffis finally call me back.

so late den call back.

i always told him.

if i really need his help.

i sure die liao de.

haas.

i told him i got scoldings from his boss.

he still dare to laugh at me.

win..

-.-

den nia called me.

asked me out for movie.

den i asked haffis too.

asked haffis to asked fadz.

den ended up.

haffis dont wana go.

coz fadz n faliq not gg.

nvm lah.

perhaps he thinks tat nia n me will eat him up ba.

dont dare to come out with us.

=p

anw..

i saw ivy!

n janice

my ex-mgrs at kallang.

haas.

i told janice to go DnD on 2nd day.

she dont even noe we're having DnD.

win...

lols.

wanting to let janice where's zirca.

i called n asked haffis wat the the name of the club b4 zirca.

coz i suddenly forget the place le!

its MOS!!

think haffis will think im crazy.

call him to ask him tat.

lols.

my 2hrs was kind of fun n playful.

=p

finally 8pm.

den he shouted to me saying results is out.

PERFECT!!

lalala!

im damn happy!!

=DD

all the incidents happened is worth it.

(:

at last.

nia dont wana meet up.

coz she not feeling well.

luckily haffis did not want to join.

den dear called me for supper.

phew~

luckily i did not meet nia.

things are so lucky for me.

how i wish everyday im tat lucky!

(:

just came back from supper with dear.

<3

last night of his programme le.

aft 2.5hrs of hard work.

finally i called in le!

yun heard me!

lols.

=DD

these 2 days not working.

stayed at home and being lazy.

hais.

gg to universal studios on 20mar.

tix @ $72.

kind of not cheap.

but kind of looking forward for it.

if the universal studios is not open.

think im not looking forward for this gathering ba.

(:

hope he'll find a job soon.

so that he hope be so stressed up.

(:

somehow i do hope tat he'll accept my friends.

they are really good ppl.

hmm..

(:

im feel tat im like slacking!

arghh!!

WHY?!?!

cant!

i cant slack anymore!

alot ppl are climbing faster n faster!

wake up suet!!

dont slack!

>.<

its already 3rd mth of yr 2010.

seems like no improvement in me.

n yet my performance is like getting worse n worst.

freakk!

i dont wana disappoint my boss!